Fate

Fate doesn't give us what we want.  We get what we didn't know we needed.  When it happens, you will look back on all that you have suffered and you will not want to change a single thing that got you to this place because in the end, all that matters is your own peace.
The most precious gift of life is the peace that stems from loving all of who you are.

Exercise: What I Like About You

The Universe sends us reflections that match our vibrations.  Consider this list of positive aspects each morning, pausing after each word or a group of words to feel what the word means to you.  If it's a good feeling, keep the word.  If it's a bad feeling, replace the word with something that feels good or eliminate the word altogether. 
Remember, that it's the *feeling* of the word (it's vibration) rather than the word itself that is what will draw the reflection.  When you say the word, does it make you smile?  Do you get a warm, and relaxed feeling in your solar plexus (good feeling) or do you tighten up somewhere, feel angry or sad (bad feeling).  You can have a particular person or circumstance in mind and use words that apply specifically to them.  But remember, you're not trying to "change them", you are trying to add this vibration to your own so that it will come back to you. And yes, if the aspect is not something you have experienced from the situation, you can just make it up-remember, this is what you want reflected back to you.
You can also use lists like this to attract things into your life that you aren't experiencing now. I wanted to stop at 100, but thinking about the situation, I got so caught up in it I had to add more!  I might add to this list from time to time, and feel free to post suggestions in the comments!
(this is taken directly from my journal so please pardon any duplicates, and I'm using this blog entry to actually reinforce the vibrations so thank you for allowing me to do this!)

Then, be aware through your day for reflections of the words coming back in the events, circumstances and behaviors of the people around you, and be sure to record them all!
HAVE FUN!

1. jolly
2. jovial
3. loving
4. caring
5. sweet
6. gentle
7. kind
8. compassionate
9. happy
10. joyful
11. truthful
12. honest
13. open
14. generous
15. giving
16. intelligent
17. educated
18. smart
19. magnetic
20. attractive
21. personable
22. friendly
23. warm
24. genuine
25. patient
26. dedicated
27. devoted
28. loyal
29. focused
30. attentive
31. sensitive
32. stable
33. sure
34. trusting
35. trustworthy
36. beautiful
37. blissful
38. bountiful
39. handsome
40. fun
41. sophisticated
42. worldly
43. spontaneous
44. child-like
45. calm
46. peaceful
47. serene
48. mellow
49. centered
50. balanced
51. content
52. protective
53. supportive
54. sexy
55. sensual
56. demonstrative
57. affectionate
58. charming
59. playful
60. intelligent
61. connected
62. aligned
63. confidant
64. friendly
65. easy going
66. carefree
67. cooperative
68. multi-faceted
69. complex
70. evolving
71. curious
72. artistic
73. talented
74. creative
75. imaginative
76. visionary
77. considerate
78. relaxed
79. refined
80. funny
81. encouraging
82. big hearted
83. grateful
84. appreciative
85. punctual
86. delightful
87. sincere
88. resonant
89. youthful
90. interesting
91. flexible
92. fair
93. innovative
94. resourceful
95. clever
96. romantic
97. in the moment
98. harmonious
99. wise
100. uplifting
101. fascinating
102. enjoyable
103. positive
104. insightful
105. entertaining
106. perfect
107. spiritual
108. responsive
109. competent
110. mature
111. accepting
112. clear
113. enlightened
114. brilliant
115. light-hearted
116. gracious
117. graceful
118. Understanding
119. vibrant
120. vital
121. strong
122. joyous
123. interesting
124. empathic
125. radiant
126. courteous
127. honorable
128. decent
129. comforting
130. tender
131. sympathetic
132. amiable
133. aware
134. helpful
135. vivacious
136. open minded
137. inspiring
138. inspired
139. cheerful
140. intuitive
141. fascinating
142. approachable
143. out-going
144. refreshing
145. optimistic
146. sure
147. versatile
148. forgiving
149. exciting
150. thoughtful
151. witty
152. comforting
153. encouraging
154. soothing

On prayer

"The most powerful prayer a person can offer is simply to say 'thank you'; and mean it."

-Grace Gemini

The best of us

"Do not thank someone in your life for bringing out the best in you, because that feeling will only last as long as they do. Thank the one who teaches you to bring out the best in *yourself* because that will last long after they're gone."

-Grace Gemini

There is no Hate.

"We Love. We are Love. We can't help but Love, and in a Universe of attraction all the can happen is that we allow Love in our lives or we do not. Hate is the disallowing of Love."

-Grace Gemini

The reason it ends is sometimes the same reason it began

I believe that experience is the best teacher, and I have been criticized in  the past for drawing from personal experience which resulted in writing that the was "too personal" or uncomfortable to read. 
Good. 
If it strikes a chord in the reader, then it stands a better chance of making the reader think.  That is the mission of a teacher, and I'm not afraid of the possibility of making myself look a little worse to help someone else become a little better.  That being said;

I lost the love of my life today.

 Not like it wasn’t expected, and this relationship has been dragging on and off really for the last year anyway but this morning it ended abruptly, with a phone call- his choice.   

But…

I’m a tuned-in, turned on, tapped in member of the Leading Edge of Creation!  Doesn’t this fly in the face of all those Universal laws?  I’m good at what I do!  I’m a Shaman!  How did this happen, then? 

Well, I took a look at the kinds of things I was putting out to the Universe when we first met 4 years ago. 

In 2009 I was made homeless by a flood, diagnosed with COPD, lost my job; and had a minor stroke.  So I was a mess, it’s no surprise looking back that the worst of my own characteristics came back to me in the form of this person (and others) as that was my dominant vibration. 
It worked at the time because we were both angry and carried a mostly pessimistic view of the world.  I spent a lot of time trying to stay in that vibration because I wanted to resonate with him, I “wanted it to work”, and that attracted things and people that were even worse.  It was not pretty, there was anger, jealousy, blame, suspicion, neediness and more.  I'm not proud of who I was.

Then, I discovered the teachings of Abraham, and Bashar and several others, it made sense to me;  so I chose to work on my vibration.  Those teachings did not appeal to him, and so the result was that his vibration stayed the same.  This was his choice and he has every right to it.  
But even after I began my serious vibration work, he couldn’t see me in any other way.  He and I were the strongest of mirrors, and everything negative I put out seemed to come back with a fury from this man, but he didn't reflect back "the good stuff" as I was putting it out there. In vibrational work it is said that one cannot percieve the vibration of what they are not.
I tried to buck the current of what he expected from me, but he was too strong and we just kept pulling this stuff out of each other. We sunk, in a manner of speaking, to our lowest common vibration. He interpreted everything in the worst possible light.  All the *other* stuff I had attracted, the other people and the other situations eventually cleared away, so I knew it was working.  But he stuck around and we still interacted like water and sodium no matter how hard I tried.  So his anger, the anger that originally brought him into my life, got the better of him.  He used that old vibration to focus on and reinforce the worst possible view of reality, and he ended the relationship.  He treated me as though I was the way I was when I met him.

But…

I wasn't that person any more.  I haven’t been that person for 2 years now. 

So what had kept him in my sphere all this time- in spite of all our attempts to separate, and why did it happen today?

I think that it has something to do with this:  about 3 days ago, I finally made the connection that everything around me is a reflection.  II sort of knew it then, but now I really REALLY finally put it together.
So I understood that there was something in me (and in his reality, there is something in him) that was still reflecting something back to me.  I had changed the overall vibration so it couldn't have been that-so what then?
I took a good look at myself, and after some soul-searching, I decided that I had done the best I could and made the conscious choice to forgive myself for my behavior over the years.  (Thank you to Don Miguel Ruiz and Eckhart Tolle whose works I have recently found)  I had forgiven him long ago but this time, it was for *me*.  And on that day I felt my vibration rise to a higher level than it had been before, and stay there.
You see, it was with that action, I let go of the last vestiges of the old vibration and in doing so, gave it the release it needed to finally end.  Being such a perfect mirror as he is, he picked up on it and said goodbye right away.

But...
A strange thing happened.
After I did that, I realized that this relationship would not have worked with him, as he is, anyway.
And that's OK.
As he is now, he will be drawn to individuals that are more like he is now; Maybe more like I was then. He simply isn't capable of reflecting me as I am now.  I know why he couldn't see me.  And that's OK.  He is the best mirror I've ever known and I'm sure there will be many more who need to learn the lessons he can provide at the frequency at which he provides them.
But *I* am waking up to something different. 
For me, there will be different people- and that's OK.   As he is now, we do not resonate and that’s OK.  As he is now, he will not hear anything I have to say anyway.   Because you cannot percieve a thing that you are not the vibration of.
And that's OK.

As he is now, I Love him. But I know that though he is in my heart; he no longer belongs in my life.  And that is fine.
Nobody failed here.  The Laws of the Universe are intact and working perfectly. 

And…

I'm OK.
Sure, it stings, but I also can’t help but be amazingly grateful for this experience.   What a magnificent Soulmate he is to have taught me so much!  How fearless he was to reflect back to me everything I needed to know, no matter how unpleasant or painful.  Even though I know he doesn't understand this in his physical form, what a gift he gave me from Spirit when he agreed to do this.  How lucky I was to have someone as funny, smart, handsome, giving, selfless, truthful and worldly.   I may have started writing today with tears of sadness, but now they are a great flowing stream of appreciation and I shed them in his honor, and in mine. 
I know it was a good experience.  I've recieved the benefit of clarity and I'm expanding!  I can see the positive aspects of this, and I'm really challenged to find a negative one!
That's how I know I've truly changed.

Looking back on the past three days, I can see how , with so many things to be enthusiastic about, as my vibrational work had really picked up momentum in other areas of my life; the one thing that didn’t fit was…well…for lack of a better word “ejected” from my life. It's no longer the shock it was.

I understand why it happened now, I take it as a sign of great progress.  There is something better coming. I have been honing the idea of what I really want all this time  My vibration is purer than it has ever been before.  I'll be attracting people who are at this new vibration, they're already showing up!  What is on the way is much better and fuller and more complete than what has passed, and when it comes it will be spectacular!
I have him to thank for that. 

So...

Thank you, Be happy, Be well.  I Love you. Namaste.

When a relationship doesn't work out

"The laws of the Universe work perfectly; without exception. We are vibrational beings and we attract those things, beings, relationships and situations that match our own vibration.
In other words, if that thing you think you were looking for was a perfect vibrational match to what you really wanted, there would be no obstacles to it, and it would still be there. If it is not there, it was not what you were really looking for. The only obstacles in our lives are the ones we put there ourselves. What matches us stays in our lives- what does not match us moves away. Perfectly; without exception."
-Grace Gemini

What is meant to be

"There is no "meant to be". All that determines what happens in your life is what you want, how much you want it, and how purely you believe in its happening."
-Grace Gemini

If you're brave enough...

"Forgive yourself all of your past actions and mistakes. Decide that loving yourself is the most important thing in the world-make the decision that you will no longer accept abuse from anyone, even yourself. Decide you will no longer use others to punish yourself. Then see who leaves your life-and who stays."
-GraceGemini

"Real Love doesn't save you-it cheers you on while you learn to save yourself."

-Grace Gemini

After today's request for emergency healing for a friend's cat

"Hey Grace, "THE CAT" JUST ATE!! yeahhhhhh....i just got done cleaning her face and eyes and giving her meds. the swelling on her face even looks a little better... AFter her meds, she groomed herself as usual, cleaned her face and then curled up and is sleeping peacefully now...thank you so much for all you help.. Wow,..."

YAY!

On perfection

"If someone tells you that a relationship is perfect for them "in spite of the shit", then it's not perfect. If they truly thought it was perfect, it wouldn't even occur to them to say "in spite of"."

-Grace Gemini

True Teachers

"The greatest Teachers do not say "Worship me". They do not say "Follow me."
The greatest Teachers said "Be LIKE me."
They are not interested in creating "followers", they are creating EQUALS."
-Grace Gemini

Fear

"Fear is what takes us out of the present moment. When you are afraid, you are thinking about something that has happened, or worrying about something that may happen.
When you are out of the present moment, you are off your path. Your mind will play tricks on you. The rational mind will begin to search for reasons and evidence to support the fear it feels. You become reactionary instead of responsible.
Don't worry about this, it happens from time to time. You are always able to stop, take a breath and re-focus on the present moment. You are always able to begin again."
-Grace Gemini

Truth and Lies.

When people lie, it often stems from shame, fear or guilt. Shame comes because we can't, or won't except the truth.  Fear occurs when the truth is something we might not want to hear.  Guilt happens when we expect that the truth will hurt another.

But the problem is that all words carry energy; lies, especially so.  Even if the person being lied to does not know on a conscious level that they are being lied to, they do feel it; and that energy eats away at the foundation of the relationship.

So, step into your truth.  Take responsibility for the choices you've made.  Act and speak with integrity.  Do not focus on the opinions or actions of others.  Letting go of dependance on the feelings of others brings you freedom.  You will no longer be bound by the fear of loss.  You will be free of having to maintain the lie.  You release the shame that comes when you know you have not acted properly.  You will be liberated from the fear of discovery.  You will be free of worry about who knows what information and you will have no potential shame at being "found out".  You will no longer have to pile lies on lies to maintain the status quo. 

Be equitable with others, but above all with yourself. And be aware how a torrent of suppressed "truths" about another may in reality be unresolved issues you have within yourself.  Understand how our "rational" minds can often deceive us.  Being honest is about allowing ourselves to feel vulnerable.  As with all paradox, this contains great power for transformation because only then are we genuine in our dealings with others; and only then can we change resentment into connection.

"Manipulation is trying to convince a person that your opinion of them is more important than their opinion of themselves."
-Grace Gemini

Not all who Wonder are lost.

"Sometimes in life you feel as though you have lost.
But that is never the case. You never, ever lose. Eventually, the Universe will show you that it was listening all along.
The thing is- you just don't get the things you thought you wanted, you get the things that you didn't know you needed- and were already there. You just couldn't see them for what they were, but they were already there.
If things are cleared out of your life, or inaccessible, they are that way for a reason. Have faith that what comes of it will be even better than you imagined and you won't even miss what you thought you lost."
-Grace Gemini