""Chaos exists as a state of unlimited, equal potentials. Artists impose order on chaos, pulling, from that unlimited and equal state in order to realize those potentials which speak most clearly to them. This makes them as much magicians in their own right as those who work exclusively with the energies of the Universe."
-Grace Gemini
Showing posts with label vibration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label vibration. Show all posts
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Tuesday, May 07, 2013
Stop Filling In The Blanks
Because the Ego is continuously fighting for survival to justify its existence, it takes it upon itself to know everything- even when there is no information with which to form an opinion. Its need to be in charge is so great that it supplies "facts" to make up for the unknown elements of a given situation.
In other words; it just makes stuff up.
We are all involved in a constantly evolving story-line of our own creating.
This week, I had a first-hand opportunity to see how this can wreak havoc with my life.
It began with a flat tire.
Well, not completely flat, but on its way to that state. The car, however, belonged to a friend of mine, and they informed me with a sense of utter certainty that someone had let the air out of the tire; and that this act was done in an attempt to "get back" at my friend for something.
Not that my friend "believed" someone had done this, but that someone had done it.
I took a look at the event, the realization that one tire was low on air, and decided that it didn't quite add up to evidence of a malicious act. Why did they just take some of the air out? Why did they only do this on one tire? Wouldn't someone who was being truly malicious want to cause the greatest amount of inconvenience to their victim? Wouldn't they let the air out of all the tires-or, at the very least let all the air out of one tire?
But my friend was already caught up in the natural progression of thought which went something like this:
If one was to assume that someone let some of the air out of one of the tires, then there had to be a reason why.
The reason why was obviously something negative. They were trying to "get back" at my friend. They were unfriendly people. They were making a political statement. They were ignorant. etc etc etc....
That led to my friend to feel disliked, unsafe and threatened.
Now, hold on here. We do not actually know what really happened. But the owner of the car went automatically to the negative. Is the preferred state of being to feel unsafe and threatened? No, that certainly does not serve me.
Then why do it?
Well, it seemed obvious to me.
There was no reason to do it.
Knowing that people around me often reflected my own beliefs, I decided to take a look at myself, and Goodness, what a mess I found!
Turns out, I do the same thing on many, many subjects. Someone didn't return a text because they must be mad at me. Someone offered me a gift in order to buy me off in some way. I didn't get asked to a place because my company is not as enjoyable as someone else's. Someone didn't like my Facebook Post, I'm not as good as other people who post and get "liked".
Sheesh!
To show you what I mean, I'll take a specific entry from my journal:
Situation:
Someone didn't return a text.
Old Thoughts:
They are mad at me. I've offended them somehow. Other people probably get their texts returned right away. I bet other people get lots of communication. I am being excluded. I am less worthy. Something is being hidden from me.
Of course, none of this made me feel good about anything, in fact, thoughts like this often just brought me to tears.
So I continued;
It COULD be they are simply busy.
Perhaps other people are getting the same treatment.
Perhaps they have not gotten my message.
Perhaps they do not know how to answer.
They don't like to text.
They are having some quiet time.
The phone is not working.
I DO NOT KNOW WHY AND THAT'S OK
I release the need to know WHY-and I no longer fill in these blanks. The event is neutral and even though I do not, at this time, see how it will work out positively, I accept that it will and leave it where it is. The Universe is working hard to send me what I desire. I'm getting a handle on this and as painful as it is to face, I'm proud that I have figured it out and I KNOW I have the strength to face it."
There could be any number of reasons, NONE of which pointed to anything negative about me or how I was being treated, but the point is not really to assign some specific meaning (though positive possibilities feel better than repeating the negative ones), it is to remember that there is no inherent pain in any given situation. They are all neutral. The meaning they have is what we assign to them. Our physical mind is not designed to know and understand every little detail so stop forcing it to do something it isn't designed to do.
I went through my present thoughts and did a process like the above for every instance where I realized I was filling in the blanks for something I didn't know.
Even if you don't believe, as I do, that Reality is directed by your thoughts and vibration, why would you choose to suffer those negative thoughts before you really, REALLY have a reason?
And if you do agree with me about the nature of Reality, then you can see how putting out a vibe of negative expectation just causes those expectations to be realized.
Your mind is designed to take account of how things are happen-ING, NOT to determine how something happened or will happen. It is a great, in-the-moment interpreter, and that's all it's supposed to be. It functions best when we are in the present moment and there are many systems of belief that say the same thing.
Have faith that things happen for a reason, but don't knock yourself out or worse-make yourself cry, wondering what that reason is. Just remember that when the time comes for you to know, and it will, that everything will become clear; and that reason will always turn out to be the very best for you.
Whatever the actual reason behind the low tire, from my perspective it happened to bring another layer of myself to my attention so that it could be healed-and that turned out to be a very good thing.
In other words; it just makes stuff up.
We are all involved in a constantly evolving story-line of our own creating.
This week, I had a first-hand opportunity to see how this can wreak havoc with my life.
It began with a flat tire.
Well, not completely flat, but on its way to that state. The car, however, belonged to a friend of mine, and they informed me with a sense of utter certainty that someone had let the air out of the tire; and that this act was done in an attempt to "get back" at my friend for something.
Not that my friend "believed" someone had done this, but that someone had done it.
I took a look at the event, the realization that one tire was low on air, and decided that it didn't quite add up to evidence of a malicious act. Why did they just take some of the air out? Why did they only do this on one tire? Wouldn't someone who was being truly malicious want to cause the greatest amount of inconvenience to their victim? Wouldn't they let the air out of all the tires-or, at the very least let all the air out of one tire?
But my friend was already caught up in the natural progression of thought which went something like this:
If one was to assume that someone let some of the air out of one of the tires, then there had to be a reason why.
The reason why was obviously something negative. They were trying to "get back" at my friend. They were unfriendly people. They were making a political statement. They were ignorant. etc etc etc....
That led to my friend to feel disliked, unsafe and threatened.
Now, hold on here. We do not actually know what really happened. But the owner of the car went automatically to the negative. Is the preferred state of being to feel unsafe and threatened? No, that certainly does not serve me.
Then why do it?
Well, it seemed obvious to me.
There was no reason to do it.
Knowing that people around me often reflected my own beliefs, I decided to take a look at myself, and Goodness, what a mess I found!
Turns out, I do the same thing on many, many subjects. Someone didn't return a text because they must be mad at me. Someone offered me a gift in order to buy me off in some way. I didn't get asked to a place because my company is not as enjoyable as someone else's. Someone didn't like my Facebook Post, I'm not as good as other people who post and get "liked".
Sheesh!
To show you what I mean, I'll take a specific entry from my journal:
Situation:
Someone didn't return a text.
Old Thoughts:
They are mad at me. I've offended them somehow. Other people probably get their texts returned right away. I bet other people get lots of communication. I am being excluded. I am less worthy. Something is being hidden from me.
Of course, none of this made me feel good about anything, in fact, thoughts like this often just brought me to tears.
So I continued;
It COULD be they are simply busy.
Perhaps other people are getting the same treatment.
Perhaps they have not gotten my message.
Perhaps they do not know how to answer.
They don't like to text.
They are having some quiet time.
The phone is not working.
I DO NOT KNOW WHY AND THAT'S OK
I release the need to know WHY-and I no longer fill in these blanks. The event is neutral and even though I do not, at this time, see how it will work out positively, I accept that it will and leave it where it is. The Universe is working hard to send me what I desire. I'm getting a handle on this and as painful as it is to face, I'm proud that I have figured it out and I KNOW I have the strength to face it."
There could be any number of reasons, NONE of which pointed to anything negative about me or how I was being treated, but the point is not really to assign some specific meaning (though positive possibilities feel better than repeating the negative ones), it is to remember that there is no inherent pain in any given situation. They are all neutral. The meaning they have is what we assign to them. Our physical mind is not designed to know and understand every little detail so stop forcing it to do something it isn't designed to do.
I went through my present thoughts and did a process like the above for every instance where I realized I was filling in the blanks for something I didn't know.
Even if you don't believe, as I do, that Reality is directed by your thoughts and vibration, why would you choose to suffer those negative thoughts before you really, REALLY have a reason?
And if you do agree with me about the nature of Reality, then you can see how putting out a vibe of negative expectation just causes those expectations to be realized.
Your mind is designed to take account of how things are happen-ING, NOT to determine how something happened or will happen. It is a great, in-the-moment interpreter, and that's all it's supposed to be. It functions best when we are in the present moment and there are many systems of belief that say the same thing.
Have faith that things happen for a reason, but don't knock yourself out or worse-make yourself cry, wondering what that reason is. Just remember that when the time comes for you to know, and it will, that everything will become clear; and that reason will always turn out to be the very best for you.
Whatever the actual reason behind the low tire, from my perspective it happened to bring another layer of myself to my attention so that it could be healed-and that turned out to be a very good thing.
Monday, March 18, 2013
Why help? *What* you do vs. *Why* you do it.
It is possible to be addicted to "helping people."
But seeing ourselves as "helpers" is an attachment to an identity, or ego-construct to which we ascribe a positive value that we do not feel that we otherwise possess. Thus by helping other people we are also fueling our own egos.
Helping people is what fills the void where self-worth *should* be.
When helping others is the only thing that makes us feel like a good person, we are really feeding an addiction.
We are using people to fill the hole in our own self-worth.
As long as we are in this ego-driven mode (being "helpful" because it's the only thing that makes us feel good), we will attract nothing but those who *need help*, and because the Universe can be very literal, they will always need help. In other words, since we continue to wish to "help", whatever aid we give will never be enough because we are perpetuating the idea that someone *NEEDS* help as opposed to the vision that that person is empowered on their own. You simply cannot help someone to NOT be the underdog, if you yourself are focusing on them as if they are.
By doing this, you are operating from a mind-set of scarcity, so what you will ultimately create is more scarcity.
So do we give up on being helpful?
Absolutely Not.
But what is important is WHY you do it.
There are people who are so centered that they simply enjoy helping. They *already* know of their own value and are not trying to make something up. They are helping from a place of compassion instead of a place of need.
I can't help but think that this is one reason there is such a high burn-out rate in social service and human service jobs (I did 10 years and that was enough). Like them, I was focused on fighting this injustice or that injustice and I got what I was focused on-more fighting and more injustice.
It's an interesting paradox that possibly the people most likely to go into this kind of work are the people who are the least likely to do any good and the most likely to burn out.
( In my own defense I have to say that my career in Human Services took place 20 years ago before I changed my thinking) But it is important to understand what your state of being is when you do.
If you are *inspired* to help, it is a signal that you are within the Universal flow and whatever aid you do give will generate positive results.
If you feel *obligated* to help, chances are that this will not feel good to you, and that is an indication that your efforts will *not* generate anything but more effort.
Focusing on the problem, brings more of it.
Focusing on the fight brings more powerlessness.
Some people give energy by helping, and some take it away by doing the same thing. The difference is how balanced they are as people in their own right.
So be honest with yourself, and help people as long as it does not detract from your own happiness.
That is the only way you can attract those who can *truly* benefit from your help.
But seeing ourselves as "helpers" is an attachment to an identity, or ego-construct to which we ascribe a positive value that we do not feel that we otherwise possess. Thus by helping other people we are also fueling our own egos.
Helping people is what fills the void where self-worth *should* be.
When helping others is the only thing that makes us feel like a good person, we are really feeding an addiction.
We are using people to fill the hole in our own self-worth.
As long as we are in this ego-driven mode (being "helpful" because it's the only thing that makes us feel good), we will attract nothing but those who *need help*, and because the Universe can be very literal, they will always need help. In other words, since we continue to wish to "help", whatever aid we give will never be enough because we are perpetuating the idea that someone *NEEDS* help as opposed to the vision that that person is empowered on their own. You simply cannot help someone to NOT be the underdog, if you yourself are focusing on them as if they are.
By doing this, you are operating from a mind-set of scarcity, so what you will ultimately create is more scarcity.
So do we give up on being helpful?
Absolutely Not.
But what is important is WHY you do it.
There are people who are so centered that they simply enjoy helping. They *already* know of their own value and are not trying to make something up. They are helping from a place of compassion instead of a place of need.
I can't help but think that this is one reason there is such a high burn-out rate in social service and human service jobs (I did 10 years and that was enough). Like them, I was focused on fighting this injustice or that injustice and I got what I was focused on-more fighting and more injustice.
It's an interesting paradox that possibly the people most likely to go into this kind of work are the people who are the least likely to do any good and the most likely to burn out.
( In my own defense I have to say that my career in Human Services took place 20 years ago before I changed my thinking) But it is important to understand what your state of being is when you do.
If you are *inspired* to help, it is a signal that you are within the Universal flow and whatever aid you do give will generate positive results.
If you feel *obligated* to help, chances are that this will not feel good to you, and that is an indication that your efforts will *not* generate anything but more effort.
Focusing on the problem, brings more of it.
Focusing on the fight brings more powerlessness.
Some people give energy by helping, and some take it away by doing the same thing. The difference is how balanced they are as people in their own right.
So be honest with yourself, and help people as long as it does not detract from your own happiness.
That is the only way you can attract those who can *truly* benefit from your help.
Monday, September 03, 2012
On Children
"We absolutely must allow our children to be who they are, and love them regardless of whether or not who they are matches up with who we would have them be."
-Grace Gemini
-Grace Gemini
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Exercise: What I Like About You
The Universe sends us reflections that match our vibrations. Consider this list of positive aspects each morning, pausing after each word or a group of words to feel what the word means to you. If it's a good feeling, keep the word. If it's a bad feeling, replace the word with something that feels good or eliminate the word altogether.
Remember, that it's the *feeling* of the word (it's vibration) rather than the word itself that is what will draw the reflection. When you say the word, does it make you smile? Do you get a warm, and relaxed feeling in your solar plexus (good feeling) or do you tighten up somewhere, feel angry or sad (bad feeling). You can have a particular person or circumstance in mind and use words that apply specifically to them. But remember, you're not trying to "change them", you are trying to add this vibration to your own so that it will come back to you. And yes, if the aspect is not something you have experienced from the situation, you can just make it up-remember, this is what you want reflected back to you.
You can also use lists like this to attract things into your life that you aren't experiencing now. I wanted to stop at 100, but thinking about the situation, I got so caught up in it I had to add more! I might add to this list from time to time, and feel free to post suggestions in the comments!
(this is taken directly from my journal so please pardon any duplicates, and I'm using this blog entry to actually reinforce the vibrations so thank you for allowing me to do this!)
Then, be aware through your day for reflections of the words coming back in the events, circumstances and behaviors of the people around you, and be sure to record them all!
HAVE FUN!
1. jolly
2. jovial
3. loving
4. caring
5. sweet
6. gentle
7. kind
8. compassionate
9. happy
10. joyful
11. truthful
12. honest
13. open
14. generous
15. giving
16. intelligent
17. educated
18. smart
19. magnetic
20. attractive
21. personable
22. friendly
23. warm
24. genuine
25. patient
26. dedicated
27. devoted
28. loyal
29. focused
30. attentive
31. sensitive
32. stable
33. sure
34. trusting
35. trustworthy
36. beautiful
37. blissful
38. bountiful
39. handsome
40. fun
41. sophisticated
42. worldly
43. spontaneous
44. child-like
45. calm
46. peaceful
47. serene
48. mellow
49. centered
50. balanced
51. content
52. protective
53. supportive
54. sexy
55. sensual
56. demonstrative
57. affectionate
58. charming
59. playful
60. intelligent
61. connected
62. aligned
63. confidant
64. friendly
65. easy going
66. carefree
67. cooperative
68. multi-faceted
69. complex
70. evolving
71. curious
72. artistic
73. talented
74. creative
75. imaginative
76. visionary
77. considerate
78. relaxed
79. refined
80. funny
81. encouraging
82. big hearted
83. grateful
84. appreciative
85. punctual
86. delightful
87. sincere
88. resonant
89. youthful
90. interesting
91. flexible
92. fair
93. innovative
94. resourceful
95. clever
96. romantic
97. in the moment
98. harmonious
99. wise
100. uplifting
101. fascinating
102. enjoyable
103. positive
104. insightful
105. entertaining
106. perfect
107. spiritual
108. responsive
109. competent
110. mature
111. accepting
112. clear
113. enlightened
114. brilliant
115. light-hearted
116. gracious
117. graceful
118. Understanding
119. vibrant
120. vital
121. strong
122. joyous
123. interesting
124. empathic
125. radiant
126. courteous
127. honorable
128. decent
129. comforting
130. tender
131. sympathetic
132. amiable
133. aware
134. helpful
135. vivacious
136. open minded
137. inspiring
138. inspired
139. cheerful
140. intuitive
141. fascinating
142. approachable
143. out-going
144. refreshing
145. optimistic
146. sure
147. versatile
148. forgiving
149. exciting
150. thoughtful
151. witty
152. comforting
153. encouraging
154. soothing
Remember, that it's the *feeling* of the word (it's vibration) rather than the word itself that is what will draw the reflection. When you say the word, does it make you smile? Do you get a warm, and relaxed feeling in your solar plexus (good feeling) or do you tighten up somewhere, feel angry or sad (bad feeling). You can have a particular person or circumstance in mind and use words that apply specifically to them. But remember, you're not trying to "change them", you are trying to add this vibration to your own so that it will come back to you. And yes, if the aspect is not something you have experienced from the situation, you can just make it up-remember, this is what you want reflected back to you.
You can also use lists like this to attract things into your life that you aren't experiencing now. I wanted to stop at 100, but thinking about the situation, I got so caught up in it I had to add more! I might add to this list from time to time, and feel free to post suggestions in the comments!
(this is taken directly from my journal so please pardon any duplicates, and I'm using this blog entry to actually reinforce the vibrations so thank you for allowing me to do this!)
Then, be aware through your day for reflections of the words coming back in the events, circumstances and behaviors of the people around you, and be sure to record them all!
HAVE FUN!
1. jolly
2. jovial
3. loving
4. caring
5. sweet
6. gentle
7. kind
8. compassionate
9. happy
10. joyful
11. truthful
12. honest
13. open
14. generous
15. giving
16. intelligent
17. educated
18. smart
19. magnetic
20. attractive
21. personable
22. friendly
23. warm
24. genuine
25. patient
26. dedicated
27. devoted
28. loyal
29. focused
30. attentive
31. sensitive
32. stable
33. sure
34. trusting
35. trustworthy
36. beautiful
37. blissful
38. bountiful
39. handsome
40. fun
41. sophisticated
42. worldly
43. spontaneous
44. child-like
45. calm
46. peaceful
47. serene
48. mellow
49. centered
50. balanced
51. content
52. protective
53. supportive
54. sexy
55. sensual
56. demonstrative
57. affectionate
58. charming
59. playful
60. intelligent
61. connected
62. aligned
63. confidant
64. friendly
65. easy going
66. carefree
67. cooperative
68. multi-faceted
69. complex
70. evolving
71. curious
72. artistic
73. talented
74. creative
75. imaginative
76. visionary
77. considerate
78. relaxed
79. refined
80. funny
81. encouraging
82. big hearted
83. grateful
84. appreciative
85. punctual
86. delightful
87. sincere
88. resonant
89. youthful
90. interesting
91. flexible
92. fair
93. innovative
94. resourceful
95. clever
96. romantic
97. in the moment
98. harmonious
99. wise
100. uplifting
101. fascinating
102. enjoyable
103. positive
104. insightful
105. entertaining
106. perfect
107. spiritual
108. responsive
109. competent
110. mature
111. accepting
112. clear
113. enlightened
114. brilliant
115. light-hearted
116. gracious
117. graceful
118. Understanding
119. vibrant
120. vital
121. strong
122. joyous
123. interesting
124. empathic
125. radiant
126. courteous
127. honorable
128. decent
129. comforting
130. tender
131. sympathetic
132. amiable
133. aware
134. helpful
135. vivacious
136. open minded
137. inspiring
138. inspired
139. cheerful
140. intuitive
141. fascinating
142. approachable
143. out-going
144. refreshing
145. optimistic
146. sure
147. versatile
148. forgiving
149. exciting
150. thoughtful
151. witty
152. comforting
153. encouraging
154. soothing
Sunday, August 26, 2012
The best of us
"Do not thank someone in your life for bringing out the best in you, because that feeling will only last as long as they do. Thank the one who teaches you to bring out the best in *yourself* because that will last long after they're gone."
-Grace Gemini
There is no Hate.
"We Love. We are Love. We can't help but Love, and in a Universe of attraction all the can happen is that we allow Love in our lives or we do not. Hate is the disallowing of Love."
-Grace Gemini
Friday, August 24, 2012
The reason it ends is sometimes the same reason it began
I believe that experience is the best teacher, and I have been criticized in the past for drawing from personal experience which resulted in writing that the was "too personal" or uncomfortable to read.
Good.
If it strikes a chord in the reader, then it stands a better chance of making the reader think. That is the mission of a teacher, and I'm not afraid of the possibility of making myself look a little worse to help someone else become a little better. That being said;
I lost the love of my life today.
Good.
If it strikes a chord in the reader, then it stands a better chance of making the reader think. That is the mission of a teacher, and I'm not afraid of the possibility of making myself look a little worse to help someone else become a little better. That being said;
I lost the love of my life today.
Not like it wasn’t
expected, and this relationship has been dragging on and off really for the
last year anyway but this morning it ended abruptly, with a phone call- his
choice.
But…
I’m a tuned-in, turned on, tapped in member of the Leading
Edge of Creation! Doesn’t this fly in the
face of all those Universal laws? I’m
good at what I do! I’m a Shaman! How did this happen, then?
Well, I took a look at the kinds of things I was putting out
to the Universe when we first met 4 years ago.
In 2009 I was made homeless by a flood, diagnosed with COPD,
lost my job; and had a minor stroke. So
I was a mess, it’s no surprise looking back that the worst of my own
characteristics came back to me in the form of this person (and others) as that was my dominant vibration.
It worked at the time because we were both angry and carried a mostly pessimistic view of the world. I spent a lot of time trying to stay in that vibration because I wanted to resonate with him, I “wanted it to work”, and that attracted things and people that were even worse. It was not pretty, there was anger, jealousy, blame, suspicion, neediness and more. I'm not proud of who I was.
Then, I discovered the teachings of Abraham, and Bashar and several others, it made sense to me; so I chose to work on my vibration. Those teachings did not appeal to him, and so the result was that his vibration stayed the same. This was his choice and he has every right to it.
But even after I began my serious vibration work, he couldn’t see me in any other way. He and I were the strongest of mirrors, and everything negative I put out seemed to come back with a fury from this man, but he didn't reflect back "the good stuff" as I was putting it out there. In vibrational work it is said that one cannot percieve the vibration of what they are not.
I tried to buck the current of what he expected from me, but he was too strong and we just kept pulling this stuff out of each other. We sunk, in a manner of speaking, to our lowest common vibration. He interpreted everything in the worst possible light. All the *other* stuff I had attracted, the other people and the other situations eventually cleared away, so I knew it was working. But he stuck around and we still interacted like water and sodium no matter how hard I tried. So his anger, the anger that originally brought him into my life, got the better of him. He used that old vibration to focus on and reinforce the worst possible view of reality, and he ended the relationship. He treated me as though I was the way I was when I met him.
It worked at the time because we were both angry and carried a mostly pessimistic view of the world. I spent a lot of time trying to stay in that vibration because I wanted to resonate with him, I “wanted it to work”, and that attracted things and people that were even worse. It was not pretty, there was anger, jealousy, blame, suspicion, neediness and more. I'm not proud of who I was.
Then, I discovered the teachings of Abraham, and Bashar and several others, it made sense to me; so I chose to work on my vibration. Those teachings did not appeal to him, and so the result was that his vibration stayed the same. This was his choice and he has every right to it.
But even after I began my serious vibration work, he couldn’t see me in any other way. He and I were the strongest of mirrors, and everything negative I put out seemed to come back with a fury from this man, but he didn't reflect back "the good stuff" as I was putting it out there. In vibrational work it is said that one cannot percieve the vibration of what they are not.
I tried to buck the current of what he expected from me, but he was too strong and we just kept pulling this stuff out of each other. We sunk, in a manner of speaking, to our lowest common vibration. He interpreted everything in the worst possible light. All the *other* stuff I had attracted, the other people and the other situations eventually cleared away, so I knew it was working. But he stuck around and we still interacted like water and sodium no matter how hard I tried. So his anger, the anger that originally brought him into my life, got the better of him. He used that old vibration to focus on and reinforce the worst possible view of reality, and he ended the relationship. He treated me as though I was the way I was when I met him.
But…
I wasn't that person any more. I haven’t been that person for 2 years now.
So what had kept him in my sphere all this time- in spite of all our attempts to separate, and why did it happen today?
I think that it has something to do with this: about 3 days ago, I finally made the connection that everything around me is a reflection. II sort of knew it then, but now I really REALLY finally put it together.
So I understood that there was something in me (and in his reality, there is something in him) that was still reflecting something back to me. I had changed the overall vibration so it couldn't have been that-so what then?
I took a good look at myself, and after some soul-searching, I decided that I had done the best I could and made the conscious choice to forgive myself for my behavior over the years. (Thank you to Don Miguel Ruiz and Eckhart Tolle whose works I have recently found) I had forgiven him long ago but this time, it was for *me*. And on that day I felt my vibration rise to a higher level than it had been before, and stay there.
You see, it was with that action, I let go of the last vestiges of the old vibration and in doing so, gave it the release it needed to finally end. Being such a perfect mirror as he is, he picked up on it and said goodbye right away.
But...
A strange thing happened.
After I did that, I realized that this relationship would not have worked with him, as he is, anyway.
And that's OK.
As he is now, he will be drawn to individuals that are more like he is now; Maybe more like I was then. He simply isn't capable of reflecting me as I am now. I know why he couldn't see me. And that's OK. He is the best mirror I've ever known and I'm sure there will be many more who need to learn the lessons he can provide at the frequency at which he provides them.
But *I* am waking up to something different.
For me, there will be different people- and that's OK. As he is now, we do not resonate and that’s OK. As he is now, he will not hear anything I have to say anyway. Because you cannot percieve a thing that you are not the vibration of.
And that's OK.
So I understood that there was something in me (and in his reality, there is something in him) that was still reflecting something back to me. I had changed the overall vibration so it couldn't have been that-so what then?
I took a good look at myself, and after some soul-searching, I decided that I had done the best I could and made the conscious choice to forgive myself for my behavior over the years. (Thank you to Don Miguel Ruiz and Eckhart Tolle whose works I have recently found) I had forgiven him long ago but this time, it was for *me*. And on that day I felt my vibration rise to a higher level than it had been before, and stay there.
You see, it was with that action, I let go of the last vestiges of the old vibration and in doing so, gave it the release it needed to finally end. Being such a perfect mirror as he is, he picked up on it and said goodbye right away.
But...
A strange thing happened.
After I did that, I realized that this relationship would not have worked with him, as he is, anyway.
And that's OK.
As he is now, he will be drawn to individuals that are more like he is now; Maybe more like I was then. He simply isn't capable of reflecting me as I am now. I know why he couldn't see me. And that's OK. He is the best mirror I've ever known and I'm sure there will be many more who need to learn the lessons he can provide at the frequency at which he provides them.
But *I* am waking up to something different.
For me, there will be different people- and that's OK. As he is now, we do not resonate and that’s OK. As he is now, he will not hear anything I have to say anyway. Because you cannot percieve a thing that you are not the vibration of.
And that's OK.
As he is now, I Love
him. But I know that though he is in my heart; he no longer belongs in my life. And that is fine.
Nobody failed here. The Laws of the Universe are intact and working perfectly.
Nobody failed here. The Laws of the Universe are intact and working perfectly.
And…
I'm OK.
Sure, it stings, but I also can’t help but be amazingly grateful for this experience. What a magnificent Soulmate he is to have taught me so much! How fearless he was to reflect back to me everything I needed to know, no matter how unpleasant or painful. Even though I know he doesn't understand this in his physical form, what a gift he gave me from Spirit when he agreed to do this. How lucky I was to have someone as funny, smart, handsome, giving, selfless, truthful and worldly. I may have started writing today with tears of sadness, but now they are a great flowing stream of appreciation and I shed them in his honor, and in mine.
I know it was a good experience. I've recieved the benefit of clarity and I'm expanding! I can see the positive aspects of this, and I'm really challenged to find a negative one!
That's how I know I've truly changed.
Sure, it stings, but I also can’t help but be amazingly grateful for this experience. What a magnificent Soulmate he is to have taught me so much! How fearless he was to reflect back to me everything I needed to know, no matter how unpleasant or painful. Even though I know he doesn't understand this in his physical form, what a gift he gave me from Spirit when he agreed to do this. How lucky I was to have someone as funny, smart, handsome, giving, selfless, truthful and worldly. I may have started writing today with tears of sadness, but now they are a great flowing stream of appreciation and I shed them in his honor, and in mine.
I know it was a good experience. I've recieved the benefit of clarity and I'm expanding! I can see the positive aspects of this, and I'm really challenged to find a negative one!
That's how I know I've truly changed.
Looking back on the past three days, I can see how , with so
many things to be enthusiastic about, as my vibrational work had really picked up momentum in other areas of my life; the one thing that didn’t fit was…well…for
lack of a better word “ejected” from my life. It's no longer the shock it was.
I understand why it happened now, I take it as a sign of great progress. There is something better coming. I have been honing the idea of what I really want all this time My vibration is purer than it has ever been before. I'll be attracting people who are at this new vibration, they're already showing up! What is on the way is much better and fuller and more complete than what has passed, and when it comes it will be spectacular!
I have him to thank for that.
So...
I understand why it happened now, I take it as a sign of great progress. There is something better coming. I have been honing the idea of what I really want all this time My vibration is purer than it has ever been before. I'll be attracting people who are at this new vibration, they're already showing up! What is on the way is much better and fuller and more complete than what has passed, and when it comes it will be spectacular!
I have him to thank for that.
So...
Thank you, Be happy, Be well. I Love you. Namaste.
Monday, August 20, 2012
What is meant to be
"There is no "meant to be". All that determines what happens in your life is what you want, how much you want it, and how purely you believe in its happening."
-Grace Gemini
-Grace Gemini
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
On perfection
"If someone tells you that a relationship is perfect for them "in spite of the shit", then it's not perfect. If they truly thought it was perfect, it wouldn't even occur to them to say "in spite of"."
-Grace Gemini
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Truth and Lies.
When people lie, it often stems from shame, fear or guilt. Shame comes because we can't, or won't except the truth. Fear occurs when the truth is something we might not want to hear. Guilt happens when we expect that the truth will hurt another.
But the problem is that all words carry energy; lies, especially so. Even if the person being lied to does not know on a conscious level that they are being lied to, they do feel it; and that energy eats away at the foundation of the relationship.
So, step into your truth. Take responsibility for the choices you've made. Act and speak with integrity. Do not focus on the opinions or actions of others. Letting go of dependance on the feelings of others brings you freedom. You will no longer be bound by the fear of loss. You will be free of having to maintain the lie. You release the shame that comes when you know you have not acted properly. You will be liberated from the fear of discovery. You will be free of worry about who knows what information and you will have no potential shame at being "found out". You will no longer have to pile lies on lies to maintain the status quo.
Be equitable with others, but above all with yourself. And be aware how a torrent of suppressed "truths" about another may in reality be unresolved issues you have within yourself. Understand how our "rational" minds can often deceive us. Being honest is about allowing ourselves to feel vulnerable. As with all paradox, this contains great power for transformation because only then are we genuine in our dealings with others; and only then can we change resentment into connection.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Channeling from Anghara
We are Anghara, and we have accessed this channel to disseminate information pertinent to your growth as Spiritual Beings. With that goal in mind, we submit the following:
All energy flows along the path of least resistance, and this can be the shortest path or simply the least obstructed. These pathways are also made of energy but they constitute the channels or boundaries which, in turn, direct the flow of energy. Think of it as the underlying structure or grid which can determine the ultimate expression of that energy- in much the same way that one may extrapolate the eventual appearance of a building by examining its framework.
Likewise, the sum total of our Life experience to date forms the framework that determines the flow of energy through our lives. This flow brings us joy, or frustration depending on what pathways have been established and how we direct our attention. Our emotions (Emotion = (E)nergy in Motion) are the indicators of the clarity of that path.
Unfortunately, most humans have been trained to approach a problem from the head, which effectively short-circuits this guidance system because there is little place for feeling in rational thought. The fantasies that are generated from this place of thinking cause rumination and stagnation. We are trying to function in a place of disconnection. Energetically speaking, is the metaphysical equivilant of banging our heads against a brick wall. Being attached to these fantasies saps the energy that could be joyfully flowing in the all the areas of our lives. This energy is not only the Universal-God-energy that Spritualists refer to, but our physical and psychological energy as well. Being lost in the fantasy means we are not tuned in to reality-and when reality eventually resurfaces we find that we have caused real damage to ourselves by our actions. The frustration and despondancy created by this paradigm can make us sick-in time, it can even kill us.
If there are many obstacles in the path to what we think we want, we dig in our heels and "try harder". We wrack our brains playing out scenario after scenario-we drive ourselves crazy with envisioning solutions and we give in to fear, anger and despair. We retreat to our heads and tell ourselves that our feelings do not matter as long as we reach the goal. We shame ourselves for those feelings, and that shame often spills over onto the others in our lives and we do not see them clearly. We are given to fits of paranoia and distrust. We see nothing clearly when in this state, and reality becomes grossly distorted. Even when the situations at hand cause us more pain than pleasure, we hang onto the hope that by holding ourselves in this place of stagnation we will somehow earn access to the desired object because we have been taught to equate success with suffering.
Many of you reading our words will even grow angry simply by reading them. Your ego will step in and you may become angry and lash out at the channel in your minds for posing information that puts the validity of your goals into question. This is a symptom of ego-control. Though the ego has its place, and we have given information previously through this channel to that effect, it was not created to be in control of Human Life. The ego makes a poor structure to promote the true flow of life.
We must learn to distinguish between our true path and one that we have chosen because it defines our ego in the manner that is indicated by the underlying structure of our adopted energetic pathways. We must understand that our ego will fight to perpetuate these fantasies and definitions even as that practise restricts the flow of energy and blinds us to the things that we do have access to. The ego forces the psyche into survival mode, and any attempt to change the ideas and beliefs that constitute the foundation of our struggle will cause us to manifest physiological symptoms-we may even feel as though we're dying. This is a trick used by the ego to hold us in the structures which do not permit the flow of energy.
When the importance of attaining the goal becomes dominant so that even our own suffering is not taken into account, it is time to re-examine the path.
A well known principle, sometimes known as Occam's Razor (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Occam's_razor), when applied to this concept of energy flow, may give some insight into the underlying structure we are dealing with. In it, we are urged to examine other hypothese, or structural pathways for those which contain the fewest obstacles, or assumptions.
Understand that though all experiences occur ultimately for our benefit, becoming attached to a specific outcome, especially if you have had a negative emotional reaction to the words of the channel, is an indication that your ego is attempting to take control. You are, in effect, damming and constricting the flow of Universal forces through your Life.
In other words, when the path to a goal or desired outcome seems so cluttered with obstacles, debris, pitfalls and prior assumptions; and when we prefer the obsession of attaining the goal over the best way to re-access the flow of energy; the best option may be simply to choose a different path.
We realize that this may require more stringent self-examination and honesty than you are comfortable with. This will change with practice. Do not judge yourselves. When you begin to free yourself from the bondage of ego-control, other paths will become visible to you.
Thank you for your time and attention to this channel. Anghara hopes that this has been helpful and relevant and we look forward to re-emerging in your future. We are your servants.
All energy flows along the path of least resistance, and this can be the shortest path or simply the least obstructed. These pathways are also made of energy but they constitute the channels or boundaries which, in turn, direct the flow of energy. Think of it as the underlying structure or grid which can determine the ultimate expression of that energy- in much the same way that one may extrapolate the eventual appearance of a building by examining its framework.
Likewise, the sum total of our Life experience to date forms the framework that determines the flow of energy through our lives. This flow brings us joy, or frustration depending on what pathways have been established and how we direct our attention. Our emotions (Emotion = (E)nergy in Motion) are the indicators of the clarity of that path.
Unfortunately, most humans have been trained to approach a problem from the head, which effectively short-circuits this guidance system because there is little place for feeling in rational thought. The fantasies that are generated from this place of thinking cause rumination and stagnation. We are trying to function in a place of disconnection. Energetically speaking, is the metaphysical equivilant of banging our heads against a brick wall. Being attached to these fantasies saps the energy that could be joyfully flowing in the all the areas of our lives. This energy is not only the Universal-God-energy that Spritualists refer to, but our physical and psychological energy as well. Being lost in the fantasy means we are not tuned in to reality-and when reality eventually resurfaces we find that we have caused real damage to ourselves by our actions. The frustration and despondancy created by this paradigm can make us sick-in time, it can even kill us.
If there are many obstacles in the path to what we think we want, we dig in our heels and "try harder". We wrack our brains playing out scenario after scenario-we drive ourselves crazy with envisioning solutions and we give in to fear, anger and despair. We retreat to our heads and tell ourselves that our feelings do not matter as long as we reach the goal. We shame ourselves for those feelings, and that shame often spills over onto the others in our lives and we do not see them clearly. We are given to fits of paranoia and distrust. We see nothing clearly when in this state, and reality becomes grossly distorted. Even when the situations at hand cause us more pain than pleasure, we hang onto the hope that by holding ourselves in this place of stagnation we will somehow earn access to the desired object because we have been taught to equate success with suffering.
Many of you reading our words will even grow angry simply by reading them. Your ego will step in and you may become angry and lash out at the channel in your minds for posing information that puts the validity of your goals into question. This is a symptom of ego-control. Though the ego has its place, and we have given information previously through this channel to that effect, it was not created to be in control of Human Life. The ego makes a poor structure to promote the true flow of life.
We must learn to distinguish between our true path and one that we have chosen because it defines our ego in the manner that is indicated by the underlying structure of our adopted energetic pathways. We must understand that our ego will fight to perpetuate these fantasies and definitions even as that practise restricts the flow of energy and blinds us to the things that we do have access to. The ego forces the psyche into survival mode, and any attempt to change the ideas and beliefs that constitute the foundation of our struggle will cause us to manifest physiological symptoms-we may even feel as though we're dying. This is a trick used by the ego to hold us in the structures which do not permit the flow of energy.
When the importance of attaining the goal becomes dominant so that even our own suffering is not taken into account, it is time to re-examine the path.
A well known principle, sometimes known as Occam's Razor (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Occam's_razor), when applied to this concept of energy flow, may give some insight into the underlying structure we are dealing with. In it, we are urged to examine other hypothese, or structural pathways for those which contain the fewest obstacles, or assumptions.
Understand that though all experiences occur ultimately for our benefit, becoming attached to a specific outcome, especially if you have had a negative emotional reaction to the words of the channel, is an indication that your ego is attempting to take control. You are, in effect, damming and constricting the flow of Universal forces through your Life.
In other words, when the path to a goal or desired outcome seems so cluttered with obstacles, debris, pitfalls and prior assumptions; and when we prefer the obsession of attaining the goal over the best way to re-access the flow of energy; the best option may be simply to choose a different path.
We realize that this may require more stringent self-examination and honesty than you are comfortable with. This will change with practice. Do not judge yourselves. When you begin to free yourself from the bondage of ego-control, other paths will become visible to you.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
"Real Love is steady, existing in the midst of what it must withstand radiating its light with quiet intensity. Real Love is like a candle, it shines to show your path; it shines to becon you home. It reaches out to you, but it does not make you come to it. Love does not deny the darkness. In shining its light, it draws your attention to the darkness so that you may see your path, and know the darkness for what it is. Real Love allows you the choice to follow it, or become lost in darkness; and even if you choose the darkness; the Light still shines for you."
-Grace Gemini
-Grace Gemini
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
A Channeling On Love
Love is selfless.
Love does not request for itself that which is not given by itself. Love sees no difference between things. What you give to others, you are also giving to yourself. Do not ask of Love what you are not willing to provide yourself. The Universe will reflect in equal or greater measure than what is given. The Universe will also reflect in equal or greater measure than what is held back.
Love does not ask for sacrifice.
Imposing self-denial or limitation is not Love, it is seeking to be worthy of Love. Love gives in equal measure. Love does not limit possibilities; Love simply chooses without judgement that which is in accordance to its path.
Love makes no promises.
Love knows it is eternal. Promising is not Love; it is an attempt to validate your worthiness of Love. Love expands. Expansion is growth. Promises are static, statements that conditions will not change. Lack of growth is not Love. Love is constant, not static. Love contains within itself the seeds of its future expressions. Love evolves. All that is contained within, evolves with it.
Love accepts.
Love does not apply itself to certain things and not to others. Love is inclusive and expansive. Love honors all possibilities. Love honors all expressions. Love includes all aspects. Love sees all experiences as a valid part of the whole of itself. It does not forgive because does not hold to one experience over the other, so in its essence there is nothing to forgive.
Love allows.
A Love is about choices, not limitations. Love provides all paths and holds you to none. Love knows that the path you choose most naturally is the closest to who you are. Adherence to a particular path; when presenting this action as proof of Love; is not Love. It is an attempt to prove yourself worthy of Love, but not Love itself.
Love inspires you upon a certain path because it is who you are, not because the following of that path proves your worthiness of your Love.
Love is honest.
Love does not give value to one while holding onto another. Love does not give itself to one while withholding itself from another. Love is consistent with itself. Love does not choose circumstances or convenience over expression. Love does not make expression dependent on its own state of being. Love inspires honesty in all its dealings. Seeking to support Love by practising self-denial is not Love-it is striving for worthiness. Seeking to support Love by being dishonest with others and yourself is not Love-it is obsession.
Love supports.
Love does not seek to tear down what it does not understand; Love seeks to understand. Love supports all-even if what is desired is to experience its own lack.
Love Inspires.
Love does not force itself on others; it leads by example. Love creates the desire for harmony with itself and harmonizes effortlessly. Love creates for the sake of itself, and what it inspires creates in kind.
Love is a mirror of ourselves. Choose a Love that reflects the quality of unconditionally, for that shows you that this is what you feel for yourself. Conditional Love accepted means that you have imposed and accepted conditions on yourself. Unconditional Love accepted means that you are the embodiment of unconditional Love. What you wish to see reflected to you must first be embodied by you.
Love does not request for itself that which is not given by itself. Love sees no difference between things. What you give to others, you are also giving to yourself. Do not ask of Love what you are not willing to provide yourself. The Universe will reflect in equal or greater measure than what is given. The Universe will also reflect in equal or greater measure than what is held back.
Love does not ask for sacrifice.
Imposing self-denial or limitation is not Love, it is seeking to be worthy of Love. Love gives in equal measure. Love does not limit possibilities; Love simply chooses without judgement that which is in accordance to its path.
Love makes no promises.
Love knows it is eternal. Promising is not Love; it is an attempt to validate your worthiness of Love. Love expands. Expansion is growth. Promises are static, statements that conditions will not change. Lack of growth is not Love. Love is constant, not static. Love contains within itself the seeds of its future expressions. Love evolves. All that is contained within, evolves with it.
Love accepts.
Love does not apply itself to certain things and not to others. Love is inclusive and expansive. Love honors all possibilities. Love honors all expressions. Love includes all aspects. Love sees all experiences as a valid part of the whole of itself. It does not forgive because does not hold to one experience over the other, so in its essence there is nothing to forgive.
Love allows.
A Love is about choices, not limitations. Love provides all paths and holds you to none. Love knows that the path you choose most naturally is the closest to who you are. Adherence to a particular path; when presenting this action as proof of Love; is not Love. It is an attempt to prove yourself worthy of Love, but not Love itself.
Love inspires you upon a certain path because it is who you are, not because the following of that path proves your worthiness of your Love.
Love is honest.
Love does not give value to one while holding onto another. Love does not give itself to one while withholding itself from another. Love is consistent with itself. Love does not choose circumstances or convenience over expression. Love does not make expression dependent on its own state of being. Love inspires honesty in all its dealings. Seeking to support Love by practising self-denial is not Love-it is striving for worthiness. Seeking to support Love by being dishonest with others and yourself is not Love-it is obsession.
Love supports.
Love does not seek to tear down what it does not understand; Love seeks to understand. Love supports all-even if what is desired is to experience its own lack.
Love Inspires.
Love does not force itself on others; it leads by example. Love creates the desire for harmony with itself and harmonizes effortlessly. Love creates for the sake of itself, and what it inspires creates in kind.
Love is a mirror of ourselves. Choose a Love that reflects the quality of unconditionally, for that shows you that this is what you feel for yourself. Conditional Love accepted means that you have imposed and accepted conditions on yourself. Unconditional Love accepted means that you are the embodiment of unconditional Love. What you wish to see reflected to you must first be embodied by you.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Jumping to Conclusions, Landing With Your Foot In Your Mouth and Unconditional Love Starts With YOURSELF
We all know that kids will be kids. This seems particularly true for the kids on my street who I have observed giving visitors to our area a difficult time.
Several weeks ago, my good friend Della visited with her 4 children. While Della and I talked, her kids went outside to play and spotted the local children riding their bikes up and down the street. Della has raised her children to be very open and giving; so it never occurred to them that the locals wouldn't simply welcome them into the games with open arms.
Unfortunately, that was not the case. You can imagine how this ended. There was name calling, posturing, threats, lots of tears and some heart-to-heart between Della and her kids about differing vibrations, compassion, forgiveness and such. All in all it was just the behavior I had expected from Della, her kids and the children who live in our neighborhood.
Now, there is one exception to the kids I see here and I'll call him Michael. Michael is 13 years old and we have become good friends, so he was here when Della again visited with her children yesterday. He had met her children briefly on that other day, they became friendly, and so it was natural that they all hung out together while they were here.
About two hours into this, Michael came back inside looking pretty upset. It seemed that the local kids were out on the street, and though both groups wanted to him to play with them, they were refusing to play together. He went on to relay that one of the kids had actually demanded he choose between his old friends and his new ones, and which side of the street to remain on.
Now when you're on the outside looking in, it is clear that those who try to force you to choose sides are on the side that you should avoid. And being familiar with the general disposition of the children on our street I was pretty liberal with the advice. "Of course they would try that.", I said. "That's the way they are, and though I understand that there really isn't anyone else around you have to think of what are you really missing if your friends treat you like that..."
That's when he said, "It was one of Della's kids."
Oi.
Now, given the prior treatment they had received at the hands of our neighbors, I wasn't surprised that a "yes vote" from Michael would be seen as a validation of their worth with regard to the ones who had dealt with them so rudely. Of course I could understand, etc etc etc...but then I said to myself.....
"Gracie, think."
Why did I automatically assume that the problem stemmed from the other children?
Sounds pretty judgemental to me.
And in expecting their poor behavior, wasn't I, on some level, doing my part to perpetuate it? Were there other things was I automatically passing judgement on? Was I holding them in a negative pattern too? And was I blythly offering advice in situations that were not as they seemed?
To be honest, I was pretty ashamed of my automatic reaction here. I've studied Shamanism for 15 years, and I still get tripped up by ego-judgements and patterns of negative expectation. I could certainly forgive kids for being kids, but I found it difficult to forgive myself. I had somehow misplaced my Love for me.
Well, sometimes these Life Lessons come with a free ego-smack-down as a bonus and after some soul-searching, I chose to see this as a good thing. As it turns out, Della's kids, the neighborhood children and Michael all taught me a very valuable lesson by highlighting my room for improvement. From now on, I'll do my best to listen *first*, and try to hold ALL parties involved in an attitude of Love. But perhaps more important, it offered experience in the process of forgiving myself.
That's where it all begins.
If you can't love yourself unconditionally, you just can't love anyone else. One follows the other.
Forgive myself...ah yes, *there's* that Unconditional Love!
*sigh*
Found it...
Several weeks ago, my good friend Della visited with her 4 children. While Della and I talked, her kids went outside to play and spotted the local children riding their bikes up and down the street. Della has raised her children to be very open and giving; so it never occurred to them that the locals wouldn't simply welcome them into the games with open arms.
Unfortunately, that was not the case. You can imagine how this ended. There was name calling, posturing, threats, lots of tears and some heart-to-heart between Della and her kids about differing vibrations, compassion, forgiveness and such. All in all it was just the behavior I had expected from Della, her kids and the children who live in our neighborhood.
Now, there is one exception to the kids I see here and I'll call him Michael. Michael is 13 years old and we have become good friends, so he was here when Della again visited with her children yesterday. He had met her children briefly on that other day, they became friendly, and so it was natural that they all hung out together while they were here.
About two hours into this, Michael came back inside looking pretty upset. It seemed that the local kids were out on the street, and though both groups wanted to him to play with them, they were refusing to play together. He went on to relay that one of the kids had actually demanded he choose between his old friends and his new ones, and which side of the street to remain on.
Now when you're on the outside looking in, it is clear that those who try to force you to choose sides are on the side that you should avoid. And being familiar with the general disposition of the children on our street I was pretty liberal with the advice. "Of course they would try that.", I said. "That's the way they are, and though I understand that there really isn't anyone else around you have to think of what are you really missing if your friends treat you like that..."
That's when he said, "It was one of Della's kids."
Oi.
Now, given the prior treatment they had received at the hands of our neighbors, I wasn't surprised that a "yes vote" from Michael would be seen as a validation of their worth with regard to the ones who had dealt with them so rudely. Of course I could understand, etc etc etc...but then I said to myself.....
"Gracie, think."
Why did I automatically assume that the problem stemmed from the other children?
Sounds pretty judgemental to me.
And in expecting their poor behavior, wasn't I, on some level, doing my part to perpetuate it? Were there other things was I automatically passing judgement on? Was I holding them in a negative pattern too? And was I blythly offering advice in situations that were not as they seemed?
To be honest, I was pretty ashamed of my automatic reaction here. I've studied Shamanism for 15 years, and I still get tripped up by ego-judgements and patterns of negative expectation. I could certainly forgive kids for being kids, but I found it difficult to forgive myself. I had somehow misplaced my Love for me.
Well, sometimes these Life Lessons come with a free ego-smack-down as a bonus and after some soul-searching, I chose to see this as a good thing. As it turns out, Della's kids, the neighborhood children and Michael all taught me a very valuable lesson by highlighting my room for improvement. From now on, I'll do my best to listen *first*, and try to hold ALL parties involved in an attitude of Love. But perhaps more important, it offered experience in the process of forgiving myself.
That's where it all begins.
If you can't love yourself unconditionally, you just can't love anyone else. One follows the other.
Forgive myself...ah yes, *there's* that Unconditional Love!
*sigh*
Found it...
Thursday, May 03, 2012
How Attached Are You To Your Paradigm?
About a year ago, I got into a discussion on FaceBook with someone who was complaining about the way her bank was treating her. Also, she didn’t have this, and she didn’t have that etc. So I made some suggestions-like close your bank account if… you don’t like the fees-Don’t want to carry a lot of cash? Carry traveler’s checks (they spend like cash and are replaceable if stolen, and the fee to buy them is a LOT less than bank fees can be.)
Car payment $300 a month? Buy a car off of Craig’s list for $300 (that’s what I did and she lasted me 4 years). Shop at dollar tree, join freecycle. Don’t have a washer? Don’t want to pay for laundry? Trade babysitting for laundry privilages (that’s what I do). Pre-paid debit cards, to purchase online, Join a food program like SHARE where you trade community service for food packages (I tutored highschool kids in Biology for that). Get movies from the library or watch series on Hulu- the episodes generally come out a week behind.
Sound ideas, or so I thought.
She said she wouldn’t drive a “crappy car” or bother with traveler’s checks, no time for service as SHE was working. Only trailer trash shopped at Dollar Tree, she would absolutely NOT wait a week to see her favorite shows and be behind all her friends and there was no way SHE was going to “take care of anyone else’s brat for free”. Then she called me a beggar and unfriended me.
No big loss- to me. ;)
Many of our money troubles are caused by the economy to be sure, but moreso than that, many are caused by our reluctance to change. The point is, money is more than just a currency, it’s a paradigm. And it’s a paradigm that’s awfully hard to slip.
Car payment $300 a month? Buy a car off of Craig’s list for $300 (that’s what I did and she lasted me 4 years). Shop at dollar tree, join freecycle. Don’t have a washer? Don’t want to pay for laundry? Trade babysitting for laundry privilages (that’s what I do). Pre-paid debit cards, to purchase online, Join a food program like SHARE where you trade community service for food packages (I tutored highschool kids in Biology for that). Get movies from the library or watch series on Hulu- the episodes generally come out a week behind.
Sound ideas, or so I thought.
She said she wouldn’t drive a “crappy car” or bother with traveler’s checks, no time for service as SHE was working. Only trailer trash shopped at Dollar Tree, she would absolutely NOT wait a week to see her favorite shows and be behind all her friends and there was no way SHE was going to “take care of anyone else’s brat for free”. Then she called me a beggar and unfriended me.
No big loss- to me. ;)
Many of our money troubles are caused by the economy to be sure, but moreso than that, many are caused by our reluctance to change. The point is, money is more than just a currency, it’s a paradigm. And it’s a paradigm that’s awfully hard to slip.
Thursday, April 05, 2012
Turning The Other Cheek: A Vibrational View
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Turning_the_other_cheek
It is said that everything old is new again- in other words- we, as humans quickly grab onto an idea, and forget about it just as quickly. Eventually, in our search for something "new", we rediscover the older idea and-behold! We have discovered the next "new" thing.
Weellllll........
Perhaps that is an oversimplification, but with regard to "ancient" wisdom, I think that phrase is strangely appropo. The more I look into what I call "Alternate Consciousness Reality Theory"; (channels like Bashar, Abraham-Hicks, Cheif Joseph, etc.) the more I see that what they espouse as a "New Awareness" is really just this ancient wisdom that is "re-packaged" in terms that are more easily understandable given the times in which we live. So many spend their time trying to define and interpret these old messages, but they do so without really taking into consideration the difference between the mind-set and life paradigm changes between those people that were, and those that are.
I was thinking about this when something came up in a video concerning the phrase "Turn the other cheek". Just the briefest of internet searches turned up thousands of different interpretations from people all over the world. Obviously, they take a look at it from the viewpoint of the ancient world because that was when the phrase was created. As so-called "modern" people, we take random stabs at applying it, in its ancient form to our modern world. No definition seems perfect and we just love to dicker over the inconsistantcies, and play with the loose ends, we're human after all.
Well, what if there is another, Universal, "hidden" meaning that, once we have a basic understanding of the ways in which we create reality, we can apply to that phrase- and many others- with a nearly perfect fit.
First, in order to understand where I'm coming from (and it's OK if you don't) you have to take a few things for granted.
*I believe that we are all Divine.
*I believe that we are all projections of Universal energy into the physical world.
*I believe that we are here to create and experience, not to observe.
*I believe that we create our own reality. By this, I mean, that the vibrations that we embody determine what we experience in our worlds.
*I believe that matter is not solid, it is the manifestation of various vibrational frequencies as interpreted by our sense organs and brain.
*I believe that the things "out there" are projections of things in our own minds.
*I believe that by changing the way we feel, we create change, as opposed to what most people believe that the things we encounter create our feelings.
This is the basis for my interpretation of "Turn the Other Cheek".
Sure, it could mean reacting to violence with non-violence.
Sure, it could refer to the idea of forcing someone to hit you with the open palm thus designating you as an "equal".
Sure, it could be interpreted as another way of saying "Love thy neighbor."
BUT WHAT IF-
What if Turn the Other Cheek really refers to the idea what when we are confronted with violence in our environments, we should simply look away (in a manner of speaking). What if it means that if we continue to carry the idea of this violence in our minds, and vibrations, we are actually perpetuating it? What if we are attracting it to ourselves?
I have taken this to heart, and do not allow outside violence to touch my life to the best of my ability. I am very careful about what I put into my vibrational frequency. I don't watch TV. I don't listen to music with negative lyrics, I don't watch violent sports. I am at all times aware of the thoughts I carry around with me, and if they dip into a range that I consider to be negative, I redirect them to something that I feel good thinking about.
I can't make anyone believe me, or change their behavior. I can only tell you what a difference in feeling this has imparted on my life at this time. I can't tell you that, physically, much is different-yet. But I can tell you that this simple shifting of emphasis from what is immediate to what is important and eternal has made me happier than I have ever been. Things are beginning to turn in my favor-I see evidence of this every day. I have faith that I am loved by the Universe, and that faith has helped me to correct many of the inconsistantcies that have created things I did not want in my life.
These things have simply stopped showing up.
Now, I know, many of you will be nearly offended by this idea. You will say things like: "HOW can you ignore the suffering in the world?", "You can't ignore reality!", "I'm living in pain and THIS is reality- I KNOW reality and reality SUCKS!"
I can hear you now.
And I'll not argue with you.
But, remember what I asked you to keep in mind. According to my view, and those of other channels, it is our thoughts that come first, and the reality comes after. Why is there war? Because people believe it has always been there and always will be there. I No longer want a part in perpetuating this vibration in my world.
What if an end to war was simply a matter of doing the same thing? changing our individual beliefs, turning the other cheek, one person at a time?
What if, indeed....
It is said that everything old is new again- in other words- we, as humans quickly grab onto an idea, and forget about it just as quickly. Eventually, in our search for something "new", we rediscover the older idea and-behold! We have discovered the next "new" thing.
Weellllll........
Perhaps that is an oversimplification, but with regard to "ancient" wisdom, I think that phrase is strangely appropo. The more I look into what I call "Alternate Consciousness Reality Theory"; (channels like Bashar, Abraham-Hicks, Cheif Joseph, etc.) the more I see that what they espouse as a "New Awareness" is really just this ancient wisdom that is "re-packaged" in terms that are more easily understandable given the times in which we live. So many spend their time trying to define and interpret these old messages, but they do so without really taking into consideration the difference between the mind-set and life paradigm changes between those people that were, and those that are.
I was thinking about this when something came up in a video concerning the phrase "Turn the other cheek". Just the briefest of internet searches turned up thousands of different interpretations from people all over the world. Obviously, they take a look at it from the viewpoint of the ancient world because that was when the phrase was created. As so-called "modern" people, we take random stabs at applying it, in its ancient form to our modern world. No definition seems perfect and we just love to dicker over the inconsistantcies, and play with the loose ends, we're human after all.
Well, what if there is another, Universal, "hidden" meaning that, once we have a basic understanding of the ways in which we create reality, we can apply to that phrase- and many others- with a nearly perfect fit.
First, in order to understand where I'm coming from (and it's OK if you don't) you have to take a few things for granted.
*I believe that we are all Divine.
*I believe that we are all projections of Universal energy into the physical world.
*I believe that we are here to create and experience, not to observe.
*I believe that we create our own reality. By this, I mean, that the vibrations that we embody determine what we experience in our worlds.
*I believe that matter is not solid, it is the manifestation of various vibrational frequencies as interpreted by our sense organs and brain.
*I believe that the things "out there" are projections of things in our own minds.
*I believe that by changing the way we feel, we create change, as opposed to what most people believe that the things we encounter create our feelings.
This is the basis for my interpretation of "Turn the Other Cheek".
Sure, it could mean reacting to violence with non-violence.
Sure, it could refer to the idea of forcing someone to hit you with the open palm thus designating you as an "equal".
Sure, it could be interpreted as another way of saying "Love thy neighbor."
BUT WHAT IF-
What if Turn the Other Cheek really refers to the idea what when we are confronted with violence in our environments, we should simply look away (in a manner of speaking). What if it means that if we continue to carry the idea of this violence in our minds, and vibrations, we are actually perpetuating it? What if we are attracting it to ourselves?
I have taken this to heart, and do not allow outside violence to touch my life to the best of my ability. I am very careful about what I put into my vibrational frequency. I don't watch TV. I don't listen to music with negative lyrics, I don't watch violent sports. I am at all times aware of the thoughts I carry around with me, and if they dip into a range that I consider to be negative, I redirect them to something that I feel good thinking about.
I can't make anyone believe me, or change their behavior. I can only tell you what a difference in feeling this has imparted on my life at this time. I can't tell you that, physically, much is different-yet. But I can tell you that this simple shifting of emphasis from what is immediate to what is important and eternal has made me happier than I have ever been. Things are beginning to turn in my favor-I see evidence of this every day. I have faith that I am loved by the Universe, and that faith has helped me to correct many of the inconsistantcies that have created things I did not want in my life.
These things have simply stopped showing up.
Now, I know, many of you will be nearly offended by this idea. You will say things like: "HOW can you ignore the suffering in the world?", "You can't ignore reality!", "I'm living in pain and THIS is reality- I KNOW reality and reality SUCKS!"
I can hear you now.
And I'll not argue with you.
But, remember what I asked you to keep in mind. According to my view, and those of other channels, it is our thoughts that come first, and the reality comes after. Why is there war? Because people believe it has always been there and always will be there. I No longer want a part in perpetuating this vibration in my world.
What if an end to war was simply a matter of doing the same thing? changing our individual beliefs, turning the other cheek, one person at a time?
What if, indeed....
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
The True Story Of Creation, or, Don't Blame The Snake
Once upon a time, the great void gave a sigh and noticing itself for the first time, said, "I am." In that instant, the no-thing-ness became some-thing.
We call this "Awareness"
This some-thing was All-That-Is, for it had always existed and always would; and for the moment it truly was "all that is" and there was no-thing else. But, as omnipotent as it was, it could know nothing of itself for there was nothing for it to relate to. The All- That- Is was perfect in every way. But in that perfection it knew that it would never change or grow.
Fortunately, there was a secret power to this thing. You see, since this thing accepted itself as All- That- Is, it's acceptance was unconditional, and that unconditional acceptance goes by another name that we know well.
It is called, "Love".
In that moment, there was a great shattering, for it is in the nature of Love to create. Having nothing else to work with, Love created from itself and sent forth pieces of its own, infinite Being into the void. These pieces were parts of itself, but also whole and complete so as to be itself expressed in parts. Each part carried within it a spark of original Love which caused them, in turn, to send forth more parts.
Now, there were plenty of pieces in the void, and they began to relate to one another. Relating to each other enabled the pieces, which retained the ability to create, to have the first experiences.
We call this "Consciousness".
There were some states of being that for various reasons, were more desirable.
We call that "preference".
Preference gave rise to creations that were more in keeping with the desired state of being, which in turn gave rise to new preferences. In this way, the original Love experienced all of what it could not conceive of in its original form. It expanded across the original void in rolling waves.
At the time, all things happened in a single instant, meaning there was no process by which they would come to Be. All was created with the speed of thought.
We call this "manifestation."
The simplest things came first. "Light" is the energy which carries information and suddenly, there was much more information to be had. So inherent in that initial shattering, was the first experience of the contrast of light and dark. Then out of this, the elements eventually took shape. More and more cohesive forms became according to the preferences and agreed preferences of those sparks But soon, the sparks recognized that true value was to be found in the process of creation. They thought "We will be like the Creator Love and send forth pieces of ourselves into these beings to experience what we cannot."; and so they created, all from pieces of themselves, other Be-ings for whom the process of creation would happen more slowly.
They were called "souls".
These versions of themselves were tethered to denser stuff in individualized units. The units were designed to process and interpreted the vibrations of the stuff around them into experiences. The denser forms of matter ensured that there was a process to all of creation which could be observed. The act of tethering themselves to physical matter also created a framework which the physical mind used to gauge the relation of events to other events.
This was called "time".
Each tethered entity created its experiences from its own being according to its desires, and at first, there was contentment. Each maintained a clear connection to the All That Is and so each existed in a state where there was no suffering or struggle. They knew their place in the All That Is, and they knew that they were Loved. They also had no doubt that they were being provided for and that everything about them had a reason for being; which they accepted without condition.
We call this "Paradise".
All Be-ings brought back their experiences to the All That Is, who accepted it all with gratitude, for it was in this way that the All- That- Is grew to encompass even more. But because the Be-ings were created from Love, it was their nature to expand because expansion is also part of the nature of Love.
Eventually, a certain group of these tethered beings saw that they could achieve even greater experience with even greater contrast. So they decided to make a change for the benefit of all the others.
"What better platform from which to create preferences?" they thought. And so they took this idea back to the All That Is. And for these souls, The All-That-Is made a sacrifice (which is another part of the nature of Love). You see, the All That Is loved these parts of itself so much, that it agreed to let these tethered beings experience existencewithout conscious knowledge of their connection to itself.
These Be-ings are called "Human".
To accomplish this, each Human Be-ing, before it incarnated into the world, agreed to forget about its previous existence and make its way in the World we know, on its own. In essence, they removed themselves from Paradise. This World would provide the contrasts that would generate new preferences. New preferences would result in new creations and the cycle would continue and the Universe would continue to expand through them. Because each body needed to relate to others, and by this relationship, come to know more about themselves, they were created with inherent duality. Both male and female became separate incarnations but each retained some characteristics from both polar points. This contrast served all of creation.
All- That- Is, and when they were not. Though this system gave them the knowledge of positive and negative, it was their choice as to how they would interpret the signals-if indeed they chose to listen at all.
This is called "free will".
When they existed in harmony with the All -That- Is, they simply felt better.
To function as a mechanism to activate this sense of positive and negative, there was also incorporated into each physical body, a thread of energy. This energy was like a snake, and its job was to rise up within the entity and open the energy portals through which information from the Higher Selves could enter. You could say, that this is the snake which gives knowledge-or at least makes knowledge available.
Over the eons, many of us have tried to re-create that sense of connection outside ourselves. We have imposed outside rules and regulations to govern our lives, and set up outside sources as those we turn to for our own guidance. We judge our progress by what we see outside ourselves, and we have given our power away to those outside us and allowed them to determine the value of our existence. Human Beings removed the importance of their own inner guidance systems and replaced them with man-made, artificial frameworks. We have chosen to experience ourselves as separate individuals with no connection to one another. But somehow, that tiny, snakelike voice within us is constantly calling us back into alignment with our Source. It is always there, because Love is also patient. It will not give up on us.
We are being given a choice. It is as simple as paying attention to your own guidance system-the more you do it, the better you will become at gathering and interpreting the information that is constantly being offered.
Human Be-ings can choose to re-establish that connection, or not. We are nonetheless loved no matter what choice we make, but the history remains the same and makes for a pretty good story.
Does this story sound familiar?
You might know it by another name: "Genesis".
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I Am. The First Law- Walt Whitman, God and Popeye
In the years leading up to the American Civil War, American writer and poet, Walt Whitman carried a notebook with him everywhere he went; and it is by his commentary on everything he saw, that we come to know him the best.
It's a lot like the notebook I carry with me. We both jot down observations, notes, things we need to remember, questions we need to ask, a hundred different first lines to what we are sure will be the next "Great American Novel"- all the usual stuff. But there is one entry in Whitman's notebook that is particularly worthy of note.
On one page there is an entry which many believe to be simply the beginnings of his book "Leaves Of Grass", which reads; "And I am."
Now, many believe that those words, "I am", should be looked at as an unfinished sentence. Popular opinion seems to be that the sentence was meant to read "I am (insert something here)". In other words, "I am" was not meant to stand alone and Whitman just forgot to write whatever was supposed to come next.
I believe something else.
As evidenced by a single notebook entry, I believe this was the point at which he began to access his real power as a writer and as a Human Being.
Modern Reality theory holds that there are 4 Laws (existing outside our "laws of physics" that really only pertain to our particular dimensional Universe anyway) that allow you to experience your version of reality. The first law states "You exist".
That may sound simple, but it contains a sub-current of information that, when you realize what it means, is astounding and humbling. It also comes with an inherent set of perks and bennies that we are given as human beings by the All-That-Is that can help us to navigate our existance.
You see, if you exist *now*, you always have and you always will.
"How can this be?" you ask? (yes, I heard you)-it is because of the way the Universe is structured.
Many of you have heard me talk about the concept of Time as something created by the ego mind for the purposes of understanding what is happening at a given moment. This concept does not really exist outside our physical form. ALL things exist, at all times- the past, the present and the future for our Higher Selves so if you "exist" "now"-you MUST also exist "then"- and then and then and then...
We see this referred to in the Bible, as God answers when Moses asks him what he should be called. God answers "I am." Not "I was", or "I will be", but "I AM." It is the certainty of God's existance, and ours- all wrapped up in those two little words.
No beginning, no end.
In the image of God (insert definition here)
We can change form, and we often do- but in the knowing "I am", we know that we will always exist in one way or another.
Carrying this further, we understand that if we exist in all times, we have access to the information of our "other selves" AT ALL TIMES. Once you understand that there is a connection, and how to access that connection, you can tap into the greater wisdom of yourself- Your Self. You can, in effect, "borrow" from your alternate self when you need to. If you have a question in this Reality, there is a self somewhere "out there" in a reality which has an answer.
Take the cartoon "Popeye", for example, as a sort of comical analogy (pun intended).
I know you were wondering how in the world I was going to fit this in, well here it is:
If you are familiar with this cartoon, you are familiar with his catch phrase, "I 'yams whats I ams, and dats all that I 'yams" and that he often says this just before or just after he performs one of his daring feats of strength. Looking at that through your "new" eyes you can see a layer of deeper meaning here in that it can be said that Popeye is calling upon the strength of his "other selves" in order to add it to his own and save the day. "I am"- and that's all he needs!
Now, one more baby-step.
If this is the case, and whenever you have a question there indeed is a "you" out there with the answer, then in means that what is "out there" is capable of BE-ing and doing ANYTHING and EVERYTHING!
You are being supported by infinate existence- an existence that expands to include every answer you will ever need. Your imagination is the spark that creates these selves-and you could not have imagination if you did not exist! Realizing this can be the difference between feelings of despondency, and a sense of empowerment.
Though we may never know for sure, I think that, consciously or not, Whitman came into contact with this very powerful sense of connection with the writing of those two words.
If you want proof of how powerful this realization can be, take this into consideration; three blank lines after Walt Whitman wrote "...I am." in his notebook, he begins the prose which will eventually be published as "Leaves of Grass"; a work which was to spread of the idea of an America free of slavery, and would earn Whitman the title of "The Father of free verse".
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